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queen_unicorn_rejectEnd of April
I did an "end of month" wrap up post for January and February, but not for March. I guess I'll start doin them again for April, except I won't do the whole thing where I count the words for every post I wrote. That is really tedious to do.
April of 2024 was the worst month in my life since maybe.... either August of 2023 or October of 2022. Coincidentally, all months when I released an album or a song!
August of 2023 is when all this callout shit really started, albeit back then it was private and back-doors. October was just bad because Dysfunctional Bunnygirl came out and both Bea and I were not doing well mentally.
Not gonna lie, April 2024 takes the cake for being THE shittiest month of all time for me. I had to deal with the callout, and I've also been depressed, lonely and neurotic. I've kept having arguments with my girlfriend about meaningless shit that doesn't matter. All the while, I've been not going outside ever, and just playing video games all day.
Silver lining is that things have been getting more chill. I've been talking to friends more often. I've been trying to avoid conflict and spend time doing more fun stuff. Just trying to take care of myself mentally.
It's kinda hard to believe that this historically shitty and terrible month for me is finally over. I feel like I aged by a decade this month.
Another saving grace is that I've been talking a lot more to a friend of mine, Abi from The Lovely Robot. She's really sweet and I've gotten to talking to her more lately. I got her to start playing Fallout New Vegas! That is a win in my books.
April is also the Fallout month for me, I guess. My Fallout Fever is dying out a little bit .But I also started playing Fallout 2. I never beat this game when I start playing it. It's a really long game compared to the first one and honestly it's not that good for a lot of it. I prefer 1 over 2 way more even if 1 is harder to play. Oh well.
Yeah April kinda sucked. Hoping May and June are better. I'm just looking forward to July and August at this point. Speaking of which, only 2 months until I visit the US! That is pretty exciting. I bought the plane tickets on February so I'm halfway through there now. Pretty wild to think about.
Even though my life has been in utter fucking ruins, I have not stopped writing these diaries. Even though some people have even gone through it to look for dirt on me. I guess I'm just dumb like that. I like writing these diaries though. It gives me a place to air my frustrations out. I will probably keep writing them for at least this year. Not sure about next year. I'll think about it.
I did an "end of month" wrap up post for January and February, but not for March. I guess I'll start doin them again for April, except I won't do the whole thing where I count the words for every post I wrote. That is really tedious to do.
April of 2024 was the worst month in my life since maybe.... either August of 2023 or October of 2022. Coincidentally, all months when I released an album or a song!
August of 2023 is when all this callout shit really started, albeit back then it was private and back-doors. October was just bad because Dysfunctional Bunnygirl came out and both Bea and I were not doing well mentally.
Not gonna lie, April 2024 takes the cake for being THE shittiest month of all time for me. I had to deal with the callout, and I've also been depressed, lonely and neurotic. I've kept having arguments with my girlfriend about meaningless shit that doesn't matter. All the while, I've been not going outside ever, and just playing video games all day.
Silver lining is that things have been getting more chill. I've been talking to friends more often. I've been trying to avoid conflict and spend time doing more fun stuff. Just trying to take care of myself mentally.
It's kinda hard to believe that this historically shitty and terrible month for me is finally over. I feel like I aged by a decade this month.
Another saving grace is that I've been talking a lot more to a friend of mine, Abi from The Lovely Robot. She's really sweet and I've gotten to talking to her more lately. I got her to start playing Fallout New Vegas! That is a win in my books.
April is also the Fallout month for me, I guess. My Fallout Fever is dying out a little bit .But I also started playing Fallout 2. I never beat this game when I start playing it. It's a really long game compared to the first one and honestly it's not that good for a lot of it. I prefer 1 over 2 way more even if 1 is harder to play. Oh well.
Yeah April kinda sucked. Hoping May and June are better. I'm just looking forward to July and August at this point. Speaking of which, only 2 months until I visit the US! That is pretty exciting. I bought the plane tickets on February so I'm halfway through there now. Pretty wild to think about.
Even though my life has been in utter fucking ruins, I have not stopped writing these diaries. Even though some people have even gone through it to look for dirt on me. I guess I'm just dumb like that. I like writing these diaries though. It gives me a place to air my frustrations out. I will probably keep writing them for at least this year. Not sure about next year. I'll think about it.
