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Home for a day. I didn't really do much. I was just home, downloaded more movies into my laptop. Played Terraria with Bea for a bit, then took a nap.
Still obsessed with Folx. Bob Dylan Bob Dylan Bob Dylan Bob Dylan.
I forgot to mention - I think it was yesterday, or two days ago. I had a big fight with Serena. She was stressing out over housing a lot, and I said that I understand. I told her I love her but that she probably doesn't care about it right now. She said she did, though. But I said it's ok because there are more important things to worry about right now. And then I added that she probably doesn't even think about me, which I said I wasn't complaining about. I wouldn't be, either, basically.
Then she totally lost it. And was going off at me. I meant it as like, she can focus on this irl problem right now and I wanted to tell her it's ok not to think about me or any distractions right now. But she took it to mean I was trying to guilt trip her into feeling bad for not talking to me.
I did say, "I guess you probably went to sleep," which is what prompted her to go off. I did say that to convey a sense of disappointment, so I guess that is sort of making her feel guilty?
Anyway, that's not how I meant it, so we made up and things are ok. But I do feel bad about that. Idk why. None of us really did anything wrong. It was just a misunderstanding and Serena was stressed out. I don't blame her for it but I do blame myself for it for some reason.
Anyway. Tomorrow is Saturday but I have the day shift. Gonna have to go into the control room. Rip.
One of my roommates told me to wash my clothes more because my closet always has a stench coming off from it. I disagree but like, he apparently has a very sensitive sense of smell, according to the other roommates. It's just one of those things I'm gonna have to watch out for more carefully.
I'm thinking about what Bea said about Folx. She said she's not ready to listen to it yet because she's "not smart" enough for it. But more importantly, she was super jealous that someone was making music that she wanted to make but more successfully because they don't have a social disability.
I totally get that sense of envy. I don't feel that way about Folx because ultimately I think MIDI Bunny LP1 is the "better" rock opera about the internet. Also, we weren't as pretentious about it lol.
Still, I wish that album had done better. I wish it had kind of blown up and generated discourse in the way Folx has. Maybe it will, someday, in the future. It seems like one of those albums that might become a "cult classic." If any album I've made will blow up in the future, I think it's that one.
Home for a day. I didn't really do much. I was just home, downloaded more movies into my laptop. Played Terraria with Bea for a bit, then took a nap.
Still obsessed with Folx. Bob Dylan Bob Dylan Bob Dylan Bob Dylan.
I forgot to mention - I think it was yesterday, or two days ago. I had a big fight with Serena. She was stressing out over housing a lot, and I said that I understand. I told her I love her but that she probably doesn't care about it right now. She said she did, though. But I said it's ok because there are more important things to worry about right now. And then I added that she probably doesn't even think about me, which I said I wasn't complaining about. I wouldn't be, either, basically.
Then she totally lost it. And was going off at me. I meant it as like, she can focus on this irl problem right now and I wanted to tell her it's ok not to think about me or any distractions right now. But she took it to mean I was trying to guilt trip her into feeling bad for not talking to me.
I did say, "I guess you probably went to sleep," which is what prompted her to go off. I did say that to convey a sense of disappointment, so I guess that is sort of making her feel guilty?
Anyway, that's not how I meant it, so we made up and things are ok. But I do feel bad about that. Idk why. None of us really did anything wrong. It was just a misunderstanding and Serena was stressed out. I don't blame her for it but I do blame myself for it for some reason.
Anyway. Tomorrow is Saturday but I have the day shift. Gonna have to go into the control room. Rip.
One of my roommates told me to wash my clothes more because my closet always has a stench coming off from it. I disagree but like, he apparently has a very sensitive sense of smell, according to the other roommates. It's just one of those things I'm gonna have to watch out for more carefully.
I'm thinking about what Bea said about Folx. She said she's not ready to listen to it yet because she's "not smart" enough for it. But more importantly, she was super jealous that someone was making music that she wanted to make but more successfully because they don't have a social disability.
I totally get that sense of envy. I don't feel that way about Folx because ultimately I think MIDI Bunny LP1 is the "better" rock opera about the internet. Also, we weren't as pretentious about it lol.
Still, I wish that album had done better. I wish it had kind of blown up and generated discourse in the way Folx has. Maybe it will, someday, in the future. It seems like one of those albums that might become a "cult classic." If any album I've made will blow up in the future, I think it's that one.
