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queen_unicorn_rejectJW meeting
God today I did absolutely NOTHING. I woke up from sleep and it was like... 5PM. So I took a shower and went to the JW meeting.
Tomorrow is the day shift. I will probably be on Outer Entrance cuz I haven't done that in a while. Will suck but oh well.
I also could go outside tomorrow, but my roommate asked if he could use my ticket instead. Cuz, again, you're only allowed to go outside if you have prior permission and there's a spreadsheet where you can see when anyone can go outside or not. I gave him tomorrrow's for me because I don't think I'm going outside anyway. Might as well do a good thing.
Yesterday I watched Us which I think I had actually watched before and forgot. Anyway, it was a good movie, I might like it more than Get Out but Nope still is my favourite.
So my chest pain has gotten like, way worse. I'm not sure what is the cause of this. It comes and goes. At first, it was just when I was lying down in bed and moving around. Now, it hurts even when I just walk around. I think some part of my body might be fucked up.
I don't think I've been doing good, mentally, either. I'm just really sad and purposeless in my life right now. I haven't been able to talk to Serena. I've been getting suicidal and just think for hours about how to end my life so I don't have to deal with this stuff anymore.
I'm not doing well.
God today I did absolutely NOTHING. I woke up from sleep and it was like... 5PM. So I took a shower and went to the JW meeting.
Tomorrow is the day shift. I will probably be on Outer Entrance cuz I haven't done that in a while. Will suck but oh well.
I also could go outside tomorrow, but my roommate asked if he could use my ticket instead. Cuz, again, you're only allowed to go outside if you have prior permission and there's a spreadsheet where you can see when anyone can go outside or not. I gave him tomorrrow's for me because I don't think I'm going outside anyway. Might as well do a good thing.
Yesterday I watched Us which I think I had actually watched before and forgot. Anyway, it was a good movie, I might like it more than Get Out but Nope still is my favourite.
So my chest pain has gotten like, way worse. I'm not sure what is the cause of this. It comes and goes. At first, it was just when I was lying down in bed and moving around. Now, it hurts even when I just walk around. I think some part of my body might be fucked up.
I don't think I've been doing good, mentally, either. I'm just really sad and purposeless in my life right now. I haven't been able to talk to Serena. I've been getting suicidal and just think for hours about how to end my life so I don't have to deal with this stuff anymore.
I'm not doing well.
