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queen_unicorn_rejectJesus CHRIST
Oh boy. Where to even start.
So late at night, after my JW meeting, I get called by one of the elders among my roommates, right? One of the two guys who last confronted me. He wants to talk to me again so we go downstairs and I talk to three people in total: Elder guy (H), another one of my rooommates (G), and the "leader" guy among the alternative service members who doesn't like me. It's mostly H talking to me with the other two asking me questions.
First, they ask me that my accounts have suspiciously gone back up after being deleted, especially my Instagram. But also, my Youtube has uploaded stuff. I told them I didn't reactivate my Instagram, someone else with my logins did, because a few other people upload stuff for me. They ask me why I deactivated it and not delete it entirely. I said that was quicker and I was going to delete it later. Okay.
Then they're like, asking me a lot of questions about my online life. Like, who did I talk to when I uploaded those crossdressing pictures? So they ask me if they could SEE MY INSTAGRAM DMs. And I showed them because, in that moment, I didn't think there would be much incriminating stuff.
It was mostly stuff about, yknow, the concerts I go to. But they also saw stuff about me wishing happy birthdays and Christmas. So that is NOT GOOD for me honestly.
Ok. What else. God there's a lot. They surprisingly backed off of that easily. Then they asked me what kind of physical activities I had with people in the US. I think they just wanted me to admit I had sex with men, but I said as far as there is photo evidence of, which was the kissing. The line I've maintained is that this is ok to do in America, but they think I was part of a "gay community." I can't really disprove that, not without me showing my discord.
Then they asked me if they could see my Discord, and I refused on that part. They were EXTREMELY suspicious of this, they seem pretty sure there is evidence of me doing "even worse" stuff in my Discord, but I just said nope, I can't show you. There are some things I can't show and Discord is one of them.
Then their next line was "do you possess any inappropriate items?" And this is where things got fucked up for me. So they went to my drawers and found my lube, which I obviously use for masturbating. And I was telling them, well, I got it at the pharmacy and I use it when my skin is dry. I KNOW that sound stupid but it was all I had.
And they keep pushing me on this, especially the leader guy, they're deadset on making me admit I masturbate, and they keep telling me they just want to help me. And I'm like, no, this is what it is.
They also said, like... people saw me washing my dick at the sink. Which I do after I jack off. I said, like, well sometimes my dick is dirty and I go to wash it. Obviously I don't say it's because there's cum there...
Oh yeah. You know like, what's the last thing the leader guy has to say to me before I go? He asks why I wash my ass so intentively, and that a lot of people have complained about me washing my ass at the shower. SERIOUSLY! You're SUPPOSED to wash your fucking ass in the shower, you primates! How is this MY fault??? He's like, the shower is not where you wipe your shit - OBVIOUSLY I wipe my shit before I wash my ass, you fucking imbecile!
Anyway. Those are the two big new thing I have to admit to the elders at my congregation, I think. The youtube/instagram reactivation.... and the lube thing. I don't know what I'm gonna say about the lube thing. IDK if even they will believe me.
Oh, also, hmm. Lambdabunnygirl might be compromised. They saw that I had an account named that in my instagram, which i said was my second account I don't post anything in. Then G also found my bluesky and said I also use bluesky. So he could DEFINITELY put one and two together.
Ok I changed it for now. God what am I gonna say to the elders. I need to tell my mom first. Ugh the lube thing is SO embarrassing. I'm gonna have to call the head elder and probably having a few more meeting with the elders in general after this.
It's my mistake. I reactivated my accounts too soon. I should've known some people were still watching for them. Fuck.
Another problem is after I call, H is also going to call one of the elders at my congregation - I don't know who - and he said he'll be relaying our conversation tonight to him. So I have no idea what he's going to say and most likely I have to keep my story straight. It's probably fine to embellish a little, but if I leave anything out, he'll be hearing about it from H and not me. That'll be troublesome for me.
God I am not good at memorizing these things. But I need to remember as much as possible from my conversation today so I don't leave anything out. Youtube/instagram... lube... Potentially discord... Oh, birthdays and christmas... Ah, they saw an instagram story from October 2025 when I was wearing short shorts to a concert. Might need to bring that up too. And then the physical intimacy between my friends.
That's probably all of them. Ugh my mom woke up for a second and I think she went back to sleep.
Oh boy. Where to even start.
So late at night, after my JW meeting, I get called by one of the elders among my roommates, right? One of the two guys who last confronted me. He wants to talk to me again so we go downstairs and I talk to three people in total: Elder guy (H), another one of my rooommates (G), and the "leader" guy among the alternative service members who doesn't like me. It's mostly H talking to me with the other two asking me questions.
First, they ask me that my accounts have suspiciously gone back up after being deleted, especially my Instagram. But also, my Youtube has uploaded stuff. I told them I didn't reactivate my Instagram, someone else with my logins did, because a few other people upload stuff for me. They ask me why I deactivated it and not delete it entirely. I said that was quicker and I was going to delete it later. Okay.
Then they're like, asking me a lot of questions about my online life. Like, who did I talk to when I uploaded those crossdressing pictures? So they ask me if they could SEE MY INSTAGRAM DMs. And I showed them because, in that moment, I didn't think there would be much incriminating stuff.
It was mostly stuff about, yknow, the concerts I go to. But they also saw stuff about me wishing happy birthdays and Christmas. So that is NOT GOOD for me honestly.
Ok. What else. God there's a lot. They surprisingly backed off of that easily. Then they asked me what kind of physical activities I had with people in the US. I think they just wanted me to admit I had sex with men, but I said as far as there is photo evidence of, which was the kissing. The line I've maintained is that this is ok to do in America, but they think I was part of a "gay community." I can't really disprove that, not without me showing my discord.
Then they asked me if they could see my Discord, and I refused on that part. They were EXTREMELY suspicious of this, they seem pretty sure there is evidence of me doing "even worse" stuff in my Discord, but I just said nope, I can't show you. There are some things I can't show and Discord is one of them.
Then their next line was "do you possess any inappropriate items?" And this is where things got fucked up for me. So they went to my drawers and found my lube, which I obviously use for masturbating. And I was telling them, well, I got it at the pharmacy and I use it when my skin is dry. I KNOW that sound stupid but it was all I had.
And they keep pushing me on this, especially the leader guy, they're deadset on making me admit I masturbate, and they keep telling me they just want to help me. And I'm like, no, this is what it is.
They also said, like... people saw me washing my dick at the sink. Which I do after I jack off. I said, like, well sometimes my dick is dirty and I go to wash it. Obviously I don't say it's because there's cum there...
Oh yeah. You know like, what's the last thing the leader guy has to say to me before I go? He asks why I wash my ass so intentively, and that a lot of people have complained about me washing my ass at the shower. SERIOUSLY! You're SUPPOSED to wash your fucking ass in the shower, you primates! How is this MY fault??? He's like, the shower is not where you wipe your shit - OBVIOUSLY I wipe my shit before I wash my ass, you fucking imbecile!
Anyway. Those are the two big new thing I have to admit to the elders at my congregation, I think. The youtube/instagram reactivation.... and the lube thing. I don't know what I'm gonna say about the lube thing. IDK if even they will believe me.
Oh, also, hmm. Lambdabunnygirl might be compromised. They saw that I had an account named that in my instagram, which i said was my second account I don't post anything in. Then G also found my bluesky and said I also use bluesky. So he could DEFINITELY put one and two together.
Ok I changed it for now. God what am I gonna say to the elders. I need to tell my mom first. Ugh the lube thing is SO embarrassing. I'm gonna have to call the head elder and probably having a few more meeting with the elders in general after this.
It's my mistake. I reactivated my accounts too soon. I should've known some people were still watching for them. Fuck.
Another problem is after I call, H is also going to call one of the elders at my congregation - I don't know who - and he said he'll be relaying our conversation tonight to him. So I have no idea what he's going to say and most likely I have to keep my story straight. It's probably fine to embellish a little, but if I leave anything out, he'll be hearing about it from H and not me. That'll be troublesome for me.
God I am not good at memorizing these things. But I need to remember as much as possible from my conversation today so I don't leave anything out. Youtube/instagram... lube... Potentially discord... Oh, birthdays and christmas... Ah, they saw an instagram story from October 2025 when I was wearing short shorts to a concert. Might need to bring that up too. And then the physical intimacy between my friends.
That's probably all of them. Ugh my mom woke up for a second and I think she went back to sleep.
