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queen_unicorn_rejectKinda sad day
Ok so this morning I woke up and I did my stream of Silent Hill 2. It was...... okay I guess? It wasn't bad. I just didn't enjoy it. It was a lot of running around back and forth between locations. I feel like they definitely didn't pick a good area to start on.
Also my PC was NOT handling it well. It was not chugging along. I got constant stutters even after putting on FSR. So yeah, I don't think I would have able to beat that game on stream anyway. Like, I can handle streams. I beat all of Cyberpunk 2077 on 20FPS average. I just wouldn't let any viewer go through that suffering with me together.
Near the end Bea came in and told me a bit about the original PS2 game. She was pretty mad that the remake looked too realistic and also the music was different. She kinda off-handedly suggested that we play Cave Story, so I said fuck it, I turned off the stream and re-started it with Cave Story. Then like, 6 more people eventually joined the call. I don't remember a lot of it, cuz I was playing the game, and that was fun.
When my mom came home she yelled at me for like an hour for sleeping all day and eating delivery food. That sucked. Then I had to go to church. So that was a low point in the day.
I got back and I read more of the book. I read for 70:52 so I read for awhile today.
I wanna post some excerpts from the book because I might forget and some of them are great.
No live organism can continue to exist compassionately under conditions of absolute fascism, even the pigs in Chile under Pinochet’s rule were observed to take part in political killings. The House, not compassionate, stood ringed by a thick, angry forest, holding inside, however messily, its overpowering ideology; it had stood so for a hundred years and would stand for three more. Inside, the hallways were as still and empty as a frozen lake, and the walls found themselves leaning in different directions depending on who they hated the most that day.
The story is NOT subtle about the fact that the haunted house is a manifestation of colonialism and capitalism and fascism. I like books that are not subtle and just tells you what the authour is thinking. I do that a lot.
And in the next general election, without even really knowing why, she votes for UKIP. She is a young, left-liberal woman. But … she wants to be able to get a good job as a nurse, and immigration means that there are less jobs to go around, especially for young working-class white women who are well-educated. Is it clear how all of this works? How easy it is to slip, unthinking, into ways that the House wants you to be? Ila is a political being, with a political body, in a political situation, in a political house on a political street, in the middle of a political city, and this political city has a political history, it used to house the headquarters of the British Union of Fascists, the political city is in a political country in a political world where the bombs are always five minutes to midnight and, did you know that there are still ghettos? People still live in ghettos, not far from here. You could drive to your nearest ghetto a short while. How fucking horrifying is that. Just because Biden won in America, that doesn’t mean all will be right. It’s worse now than ever. Now it is time to panic.
This part really wow'ed me. This is the first paragraph in the book that I read and I went, wow damn, now that's some good literature. It took me until I was 50% done with the book for that to happen though. I'm thinking I'll give this book a 3/5 eventually, but it will be good to talk about it in my video, still.
Ok so this morning I woke up and I did my stream of Silent Hill 2. It was...... okay I guess? It wasn't bad. I just didn't enjoy it. It was a lot of running around back and forth between locations. I feel like they definitely didn't pick a good area to start on.
Also my PC was NOT handling it well. It was not chugging along. I got constant stutters even after putting on FSR. So yeah, I don't think I would have able to beat that game on stream anyway. Like, I can handle streams. I beat all of Cyberpunk 2077 on 20FPS average. I just wouldn't let any viewer go through that suffering with me together.
Near the end Bea came in and told me a bit about the original PS2 game. She was pretty mad that the remake looked too realistic and also the music was different. She kinda off-handedly suggested that we play Cave Story, so I said fuck it, I turned off the stream and re-started it with Cave Story. Then like, 6 more people eventually joined the call. I don't remember a lot of it, cuz I was playing the game, and that was fun.
When my mom came home she yelled at me for like an hour for sleeping all day and eating delivery food. That sucked. Then I had to go to church. So that was a low point in the day.
I got back and I read more of the book. I read for 70:52 so I read for awhile today.
I wanna post some excerpts from the book because I might forget and some of them are great.
No live organism can continue to exist compassionately under conditions of absolute fascism, even the pigs in Chile under Pinochet’s rule were observed to take part in political killings. The House, not compassionate, stood ringed by a thick, angry forest, holding inside, however messily, its overpowering ideology; it had stood so for a hundred years and would stand for three more. Inside, the hallways were as still and empty as a frozen lake, and the walls found themselves leaning in different directions depending on who they hated the most that day.
The story is NOT subtle about the fact that the haunted house is a manifestation of colonialism and capitalism and fascism. I like books that are not subtle and just tells you what the authour is thinking. I do that a lot.
And in the next general election, without even really knowing why, she votes for UKIP. She is a young, left-liberal woman. But … she wants to be able to get a good job as a nurse, and immigration means that there are less jobs to go around, especially for young working-class white women who are well-educated. Is it clear how all of this works? How easy it is to slip, unthinking, into ways that the House wants you to be? Ila is a political being, with a political body, in a political situation, in a political house on a political street, in the middle of a political city, and this political city has a political history, it used to house the headquarters of the British Union of Fascists, the political city is in a political country in a political world where the bombs are always five minutes to midnight and, did you know that there are still ghettos? People still live in ghettos, not far from here. You could drive to your nearest ghetto a short while. How fucking horrifying is that. Just because Biden won in America, that doesn’t mean all will be right. It’s worse now than ever. Now it is time to panic.
This part really wow'ed me. This is the first paragraph in the book that I read and I went, wow damn, now that's some good literature. It took me until I was 50% done with the book for that to happen though. I'm thinking I'll give this book a 3/5 eventually, but it will be good to talk about it in my video, still.
